Sunday, December 06, 2009
my life has hit an all time low and i know its stpid to everybody else, but to me its important.
I had my dance exam yesterday; rumba, cha cha, and samba . the first two went fine, and as far as i can tell i didn't make any mistakes. then came samba. I choked. i flunked. i screwed up. story of my life! I got to the botafogo's and i froze. my mind went blank!!! I tried to get it back and it made it worse!! I thought i was going to faint. i had to start again.
I can't bleieve how i blew it. i'm such an idiot. i completely let myself down. i cried all the way home.
I had a nightmare last night that i got my results back and i scored 51/100. i've never had less than 86!! That 51 meant i failed. I've never failed before. i really don't want to start now. With somethign i really love doing.
I had my dance exam yesterday; rumba, cha cha, and samba . the first two went fine, and as far as i can tell i didn't make any mistakes. then came samba. I choked. i flunked. i screwed up. story of my life! I got to the botafogo's and i froze. my mind went blank!!! I tried to get it back and it made it worse!! I thought i was going to faint. i had to start again.
I can't bleieve how i blew it. i'm such an idiot. i completely let myself down. i cried all the way home.
I had a nightmare last night that i got my results back and i scored 51/100. i've never had less than 86!! That 51 meant i failed. I've never failed before. i really don't want to start now. With somethign i really love doing.
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